do you remember the first time you were called annoying?
how your breath stopped short in your chest
the way the light drained from your eyes, though you knew your cheeks were ablaze
the way your throat tightened as you tried to form an argument that got lost on your tongue.
your eyes never left the floor that day.
you were 13.
you’re 20 now, and i still see the light fade from your eyes when you talk about your interests for “too long,”
apologies littering every other sentence,
words trailing off a cliff you haven’t jumped from in 7 years.
i could listen to you forever, though i know speaking for more than 3 uninterrupted minutes makes you anxious.
all i want you to know is that you deserve to be heard
for 3 minutes
for 10 minutes
for 2 hours
there will be people who cannot handle your grace, your beauty, your wisdom, your heart;
mostly because they can’t handle their own.
but you will never be
and have never been
Oh my god that’s terrible :( you need to do some serious resting. Okay you don’t “have” to do any of those things. If you are too sick you are too sick and we have to accept that and take time. I took a day off last week because I wanted to feel better for a gig I had the next couple of days. I also sat out of classes at times because I felt too sick. SOmetimes, it is just time and healing and dedication that will get you better. If you really can’t miss all of those (but I strongly suggest you take at least 24-48 hours off, you sound really sick) I would take some medication to help your symptoms, drink a nice cup of honey and lemon tea, do some child’s pose and deep breathing, eat some very nutritious food and drink, get as much sleep as possible, get some of the eucalpytus shit on your chest when you go to bed to clear yourself out, steam (i.e. hot water in a big bowl you put face over big bowl with tea towel on top, or shower power bitches) and stay warm as much as possible. BUT REST IS THE ONLY REAL SOLUTION. The rest you are just masking the problem or post poning the symptoms (and they will get worse if you don’t rest) xx
I was going to my beach trip alone but now I’m going with three friends for beach, amazing weather, food and exploring. My day just went from amazing to ultra amazing
Ilysm rn Mads
Thank-you sweet thing whoever sent me this, this will be fun to answer! Really good questions :)
1. I’m olive-skinned, I now have 6 piercings in my ears, I’m short/average height (probably more on the short side), I have a small frame (small feet/ hands/ bones), I have very dark brown eyes (you can’t see the pupils in them hehe)
2. I am passionate, I love pleasing people/ having friends, I am generous (generally), I’m sensitive (can be both a good and bad thing), I am motivated, I’m strong.
3. At the moment I really like anything by London Grammar (Wrecking Ball cover = so good) I feel they can do no wrong. But I have way too many favourite songs so just know that :)
4. Hmm…. I would have to say my favourite movie is either First Position or The Mortal Instruments.
5. The Fault in Our Stars or The Mortal Instruments series.
6. OH GOD NO. I love Spring Awakening (non-dancing musical) and I love West Side Story (dancing).
7. Giselle or Swan Lake or Don Q or the Nutcracker :) too many oh my god you make this so hard for me I don’t have favourites!!!! of anything!!!!
8. Oh sweet Jesus. In no particular order: American Apparel, Topshop and Mink Pink I guess… this is a struggle.
9. Right now? New York probably, but I have a huge craving for Europe too so don’t even get me started. I’m going to NY in the Winter holidays so probably not NY actually, maybe get some France in me. I miss that place and my host families, would love to catch up with them again.
10. OOOH. Well after this course depending on how I’m feeling with my progress and level, I will either a) go straight into looking for work (or hopefully will be given a contract or something at Graduation) or do another full-time course, or go out into the world and travel and audition. It just really depends on how good I am by the end of the year I guess :s
Lots of love xxx